A different reaction

Today I was talking on the phone with one of my best friends. She asked what I was going to do today. I mentioned I was getting stuff done so I'm be ready for my trip next week.This is for a conference that helps me be a better writer. It's also where I will see my  lover of 3.5 years.

"Oh that's right," she said. "Will you see xxx?" (sorry, can't use his name.) 

"Do I have any choice?" I answered. The words just tumbled out like I was purging bad fish.

She was asking about the man I used to count the days and hours until I'd see him next. I also haven't seen him since his visit in March. Even though we've talked and texted, I feel let down that he didn't follow through with his invitation for me to visit him between then and now. Because of that, there's a little bit of dread in my heart that probably caused the reaction.

We're not dating nor are we committed in any way. But we're friends, and it hurts when someone you care about lets you down.

I'm sure we'll be fine - pick up where we left off just like we always do - unless that dread turns into something the fabulous sex won't make up for. Whether I'm feeling it anymore or not, I'll follow my heart.

Love to the single girls,

Addison