When someone finds a place in your heart, it's hard to forget

There's a man I met almost three and a half years ago that made a huge impact on my life. He's one of the reasons I had the courage to leave my ex. He helped me build the confidence to be who I am today. He's also an example of everything I should run away from.

But he found a place in my heart three years ago and I think he'll always be there. Right in that spot.

I'll see him in Manhatten in two weeks. The memory of the moment our relationship went from friends to lovers on this very same trip three years ago is in that spot in my heart too.

I used to count the days until I would see him next. The first two years I saw him at least every couple of months and we talked by text or phone almost daily. In those days he helped keep me going from one day to the next until I was ready to make it on my own. Now its just bittersweet. In 2012, I saw him three times, and communications dropped off. We hadn't traded a phone call or even a text since my birthday just after Christmas until last night.

We've both been through a lot over the last year. But that's what friends are for, right? To be there for you when shit's going on? I feel like we let each other down. He wasn't there when I needed him. I tried to be there for him, but perhaps he didn't need me. I'm not sure he needed anyone.

Last night we traded texts. "I try not to but I miss you," I said.

He sent back kisses. "It will be good to see you. I miss you too."

When I see him I know everything will be back to where it was. The closeness and intimacy will return, and we'll have the most magical sex I've ever had. Just like it was.

I wish I could be stronger and move on. But it's that spot in my heart . . .

Love to the single girls,
Addison