Being single is hard sometimes

I felt something today that doesn't happen very often. Fear. Not physical fear but something deeper. It's a fear of change; of the unknown. It's a fear of facing everything alone.

I'm not the timid type. I'm rarely afraid of anything. A lot seems to have piled up all at once.

A couple of my clients are in weird places right now. One is having growing pains and the other has a new CEO who's making his mark. Both may lead to cutbacks that could affect me. It's taking deeper levels of creativity and determination to move past this. With the flaky economy, it's a little frightening.

There's also a new volunteer role ahead. I was planning to take on the role in a couple of years, but it's here now. The person who's stepping down early left things in a mess. And every time I take on something new, I shake things up. Some people will love it and some won't, but I know it will take more energy and faith in my instincts than I have right now. I guess I'll have to find it somewhere.

I'm burned out. Luckily there's a little vacation to look forward to later this month. It's another unknown though. I'm going alone to a place I've never been.

Every day I get a little older, but I'm not sure the wisdom keeps up. With every change and challenge, I learn something new. And the best way to do that is by screwing up - and I can do that big.

What I miss most as a single girl is having someone special at home who always has your back. Someone who will listen. A partner and best friend to talk through things with you and share ideas and dreams. Someone to just cuddle up to in bed when there's nothing more to say. I never had that with my ex but hope to have it with someone someday.

I'm not poor financially and I'm even richer in friends. I'm surrounded my more love and support than most single girls could ever hope for. They'd scare away any fear. All I have to do is ask.

Love to the single girls,
Addison